So things are decent.. the weather confused me today because it couldn't seem to make up it's mind. New York is an odd bug. I miss Florida. I have a lot of confusion in my head on where i really want to be and/or what I really want to be doing... I wanna go back to florida. someday. that is where i will end up, i'm pretty sure. it's not so bad down there. but i don't think i'm ready to go back anytime soon. we'll see, i reckon. we will see. new york is growing on me... i have a lot of very good friends here (which is what makes me not want to leave. i knew i should have secluded myself inside my apartment and had no fun! ha).. we'll have to see, i guess. i wish i could have the best of both worlds.. maybe i should just try to plan a weekend visit every other month or something that way i'm not so far removed from back home (the place, friends, family, ya know).
i don't know.
i'm studying for the gre. grad school, yay. they weren't lying when they said "college is the best years of your life" it is so very true. i would like to go back, please. haha.
i think i'm going to go to grad school up here.
i've gotten very pale since i moved here.. i always swore i'd never be a pasty northern kid. well. shit. haha
this post is all over the place... i think i find it more appealing to update when i don't make myself stick to structure. usually, i have to plan out what i write, etc...
i moreso dig just typing randomly. true thoughts and shit come out that way. perhaps. or maybe it's more garbled up.
how do you suppose true happiness is achieved? i don't know.
it seems to me.. for the most part as you go through life you're like "this suckkkks". but then down the road you look back and you're like "man, i was such an idiot. that was a great time in my life". i do that a lot. like a year or two from now, ill look back (wherever i am) at where i am now. just starting out on my own in a strange new city with nobody but myself and i will be like wow, those were some amazing experiences.
i'm sure you get what i'm saying..
growing up is hard. life is hard. but that's what makes it worth it i reckon.
i wonder what i should make for dinner..
pbj... and soup. probably. yum. yep.